Today is twelve weeks out… I’m still kinda shocked to be honest… I’ve been going through the motions of training and eating 5/6 times a day without thinking now that it still hasn’t hit me that I’m training for a bikini competition. The thing they don’t tell you about competitions is that in the beginning it fucking sucks, I’m bloated and nauseous by about 3 pm every day..[I know I know a week ago I said what’s not to love… I take it back!!!]
I’m tired of chicken and egg whites and tilapia and I have a SEVERE case of the I DON’T WANNA’s. See for me I’ve always been a grazer… so eating this much protein and carbs is kinda like a shock to my body.. so much so that I feel like I haven’t seen any change [so much so that I’m embarrassed to post any photos of myself!].
I took photos this morning and weighed myself [119.4] so I have a starting point… I just can’t wait to cut [I say that now right?]. My glutes are DEFINITELY rounder and bigger and my arms/whole upper is way more toned. However,I feel mainly the same looking… I’m mainly focused on my tummy cus that’s always been a tough spot for me. The only time I see a significant difference really is when I flex [vs flexing a month ago] perhaps the bloat is causing this..But my boyfriend says I look leaner sexier and way more toned… lets just hope these low points don’t last long .. I’m losing some motivation bc of it. Maybe no one talks about how awful the beginning is… but IDC I think people should know what they’re getting into!! Also.. how can you look at yourself at 12 weeks out and feel like a sexy beast when u know soon you’re gonna look like the pic below[or some variation of]… an even sexier beast… I wanna be 12 days out not 12 weeks…UGH!
To increase my motivation I’ve called upon the gods of instagram and found Jessica Arevalo IFBB Pro [pictured below]. The young lady is EXACTLY my height [5’1 &3/4″] and my inspiration right now [I think it’s best to find a bod that is similar type/height as yours so your expectations aren’t distorted!]… along with a few words that really INSPIRED me by Bella Falconi. I have to say thank god for internet or idk how I’d get through this without the wise words of the women I one day hope to stand with.
^^JESSICA AREVALO^^ – Isn’t this chick STUNNING?!
Words that are keeping me strong right now every time I question why I’m doing this:
“If you ask me why do I do this, I will ask you back, what don’t you? I have never regretted one single training, one single cardio session, eating healthy, sticking to my diet and being compromised to my goals. I don’t remember feeling sad after a killer workout, “oh I shouldn’t have done that”. No sir, I do not recall being mad at myself for changing my eating habits. Now, I do remember the amazing feeling after I saw PROGRESS! I do remember being so much excited after I noticed my legs growing, my abs showing and my entire body tight! I do remember wanting this, each day more and more and feeling glad that I took the decision to start. Now, you really think that you’ll be able to feel that good by sitting on your couch and wishing that you looked like someone else? Hell no! People, if you don’t do it for yourself, no one will. Guess what else? No one will feel sorry for you because you are not happy with yourself. It’s your job to take care of your body, and it’s yours alone. Peace out!”-Bella Falconi
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